Endings and Beginnings

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Happy 2008, I hope you all had a good holiday season if you celebrate and that you’re approaching this new year filled with creative energy and enthusiasm.

I don’t know if I am yet. I posted the last envelope last night and spent some time bouncing around being very happy because I had successfully completed the year without a single missed envelope.

However, today I’m feeling a little bereft. I enjoyed the ritual of marking every day and it’s hard to let go of that. How will I know that 2008 existed if I don’t mark it in some way? My mind is racing with ‘substitute projects’. Should I commit to art journalling every day? Should I take my new Moleskine notebook and divide the pages into sections so I can fill it with a year’s worth of drawings and single poetic sentences? Should I put a wallchart in my studio and mark off every day that I spend some time in there? Should I take a photograph everyday? Should I take a daily art walk where I collect objects? Should I, should I, should I, should I?

Aaaaaarggggggghhhhhhh!

I was very clear before the end of the year that I needed to allow myself some recovery time after the active phase of The Diary Project and I know that’s still true. However, my muse apparently abhors a vacuum and so I’m having to forcibly rein myself in and let my brain know that I’m not going to jump straight into doing something new. That it’s OK to let go for a little while and I’m not going to drown if I don’t have the rubber ring of a daily practice: I can just spend a little time floating and thinking and that’s OK too because it’s still being creative. And it’s definitely needed, I can feel that it’s needed but even though I know that, it’s still the hardest part of the creative process for me. Being a bit of a control freak, I don’t do well with letting go even when I know that I need to.

Generally I like this time of year, I enjoy looking back over what I’ve done the year before and setting goals for the year to come. However, I think it’s going to take me a couple of days to do that this year because I need to process how I feel about the end of the first phase of The Diary Project and honestly assess what it is that I need and want from the coming year. I’ve spent today telling myself, “it’s better to set the right goals a couple of days ‘late’, rather than rushing in and committing to things that are wrong for you just because you have this superstitious attachment to the 1st January.”

Well, I’m off to lie down in bed with a cup of herbal tea, a hot water bottle and my art journal to see if I can calm the maelstrom in my brain. I hope you all have the space and time for a little reflection too.

I am an artist & purveyor of obsessive projects based in Hebden Bridge, England. My work involves the accretion of large numbers of small objects - pins in fabric, knots in string or hundreds of envelopes - to make sculptures that deal with fragility, loss, repetition, obsession and time.

17 thoughts on “Endings and Beginnings

  1. I have just found your wonderful and inspirational blog. I am quite slow with these things.

    There is nothing magic about beginning on January 1…you are allowed some time. I will be following your progress closely this year.

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  2. I have just found your wonderful and inspirational blog. I am quite slow with these things.

    There is nothing magic about beginning on January 1…you are allowed some time. I will be following your progress closely this year.

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  3. Hi Kim, thanks for the comment, it’s always nice to hear that I’ve got new readers. There’s lots of fun stuff coming up in the new year that I hope everyone will enjoy.

    You’re so right about January 1st – I feel much more normal today after some journalling and thinking time.

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  4. Hi Kim, thanks for the comment, it’s always nice to hear that I’ve got new readers. There’s lots of fun stuff coming up in the new year that I hope everyone will enjoy.

    You’re so right about January 1st – I feel much more normal today after some journalling and thinking time.

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  5. I have to reflect a little bit before deciding what any goals should be for the new year. I have done that with my recent posting to my blog, but despite that – I think goals may take awhile longer. Then again, perhaps not having a goal can be a goal? :-)

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  6. I have to reflect a little bit before deciding what any goals should be for the new year. I have done that with my recent posting to my blog, but despite that – I think goals may take awhile longer. Then again, perhaps not having a goal can be a goal? :-)

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  7. Hello Kristy. I wish I could look back on 07 in a better light… but it’s hard. I lost a job of over 20 years and soon could be a starving artist for real. I thought with my 20 years of maintenance on forklifts would have given me a leg up, but it’s been 3 months. Thank God for mmy girlfriend Kathy and my art to escape into.
    myspace.com/zvr

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  8. Hello Kristy. I wish I could look back on 07 in a better light… but it’s hard. I lost a job of over 20 years and soon could be a starving artist for real. I thought with my 20 years of maintenance on forklifts would have given me a leg up, but it’s been 3 months. Thank God for mmy girlfriend Kathy and my art to escape into.
    myspace.com/zvr

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  9. I’m sorry to hear that Zac, I hope you find something soon, the starving artist gig is entirely overrated in my view. It’s always tough making it as an artist and lots of us need to work part time or full time to pay the bills.

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  10. I’m sorry to hear that Zac, I hope you find something soon, the starving artist gig is entirely overrated in my view. It’s always tough making it as an artist and lots of us need to work part time or full time to pay the bills.

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  11. Hello, I just discovered your blog and was just thrilled to find it! I enjoyed checking out your work and others you have linked and am enthralled. The work I do publically and the work I do for pleasure are so different and seeing your work inspires me to maybe try doing some of the pleasurable “stuff” more often-maybe even show it! I look forward to checking back in from time to time. Happy New Year! (btw, here it is Jan. 4 and I am so buried preparing for a show that I still feel I am somwhere in December yet with no ideas for what I want to hope for in 2008)

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  12. Hello, I just discovered your blog and was just thrilled to find it! I enjoyed checking out your work and others you have linked and am enthralled. The work I do publically and the work I do for pleasure are so different and seeing your work inspires me to maybe try doing some of the pleasurable “stuff” more often-maybe even show it! I look forward to checking back in from time to time. Happy New Year! (btw, here it is Jan. 4 and I am so buried preparing for a show that I still feel I am somwhere in December yet with no ideas for what I want to hope for in 2008)

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  13. I saw your blog recently in 2008, i.e. after you finished your project. I felt inspired. It is creditable that you didn’t miss any single day. I still have not sat down to put my resolutions in black and white. Though I have started painting more each day by the last week of December. And of course Jan 1st is not some magic date. All the best for your search of new project. You already have capability to take the project to completion.

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  14. I saw your blog recently in 2008, i.e. after you finished your project. I felt inspired. It is creditable that you didn’t miss any single day. I still have not sat down to put my resolutions in black and white. Though I have started painting more each day by the last week of December. And of course Jan 1st is not some magic date. All the best for your search of new project. You already have capability to take the project to completion.

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  15. hello kristy and happy new year!

    re: above–sometimes one just has to be still and wait. when i act to relieve anxiety i generally feel worse unless i am deliberately and knowingly exploiting that energy without expectation.

    a marvelous thing your diary project.
    best,
    leigh

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  16. hello kristy and happy new year!

    re: above–sometimes one just has to be still and wait. when i act to relieve anxiety i generally feel worse unless i am deliberately and knowingly exploiting that energy without expectation.

    a marvelous thing your diary project.
    best,
    leigh

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