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Happy 2008, I hope you all had a good holiday season if you celebrate and that you're approaching this new year filled with creative energy and enthusiasm.

I don't know if I am yet. I posted the last envelope last night and spent some time bouncing around being very happy because I had successfully completed the year without a single missed envelope.

However, today I'm feeling a little bereft. I enjoyed the ritual of marking every day and it's hard to let go of that. How will I know that 2008 existed if I don't mark it in some way? My mind is racing with 'substitute projects'. Should I commit to art journalling every day? Should I take my new Moleskine notebook and divide the pages into sections so I can fill it with a year's worth of drawings and single poetic sentences? Should I put a wallchart in my studio and mark off every day that I spend some time in there? Should I take a photograph everyday? Should I take a daily art walk where I collect objects? Should I, should I, should I, should I?

Aaaaaarggggggghhhhhhh!

I was very clear before the end of the year that I needed to allow myself some recovery time after the active phase of The Diary Project and I know that's still true. However, my muse apparently abhors a vacuum and so I'm having to forcibly rein myself in and let my brain know that I'm not going to jump straight into doing something new. That it's OK to let go for a little while and I'm not going to drown if I don't have the rubber ring of a daily practice: I can just spend a little time floating and thinking and that's OK too because it's still being creative. And it's definitely needed, I can feel that it's needed but even though I know that, it's still the hardest part of the creative process for me. Being a bit of a control freak, I don't do well with letting go even when I know that I need to.

Generally I like this time of year, I enjoy looking back over what I've done the year before and setting goals for the year to come. However, I think it's going to take me a couple of days to do that this year because I need to process how I feel about the end of the first phase of The Diary Project and honestly assess what it is that I need and want from the coming year. I've spent today telling myself, "it's better to set the right goals a couple of days 'late', rather than rushing in and committing to things that are wrong for you just because you have this superstitious attachment to the 1st January."

Well, I'm off to lie down in bed with a cup of herbal tea, a hot water bottle and my art journal to see if I can calm the maelstrom in my brain. I hope you all have the space and time for a little reflection too.

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Clicking on the tab for Up All Night Again, the thought flitted quickly across my mind, "I wonder if there are any new posts?" Er no, dear, not unless you actually bother to write them!

It reminds me of the time that I accidentally hit backspace while surfing and wound up at my own Livejournal profile page. I glanced uncomprehendingly at my own interest list and thought, "hey, this person sounds way cool, I should friend them - oh, wait a minute..." Still, I guess the fact that I instinctively liked the look of myself is probably positive.

It's been a hectic week. My 40th birthday was on Saturday and my family threw a rather fabulous party for me complete with mountains of healthy yet delicious gluten-free food. We had about 30 people there and I was very touched that so many people, some of whom had travelled quite a distance, came to celebrate with me. I thoroughly enjoyed it and have decided that I should have birthday parties more often (although probably not every year).

The chocolates are all gone and the many bunches of flowers are starting to wilt but I'm still happily playing with several of my presents, which included a pile of books, a full set of Sakura glaze pens and a very cute, tiny set of travelling watercolours with a little water brush. Art materials - the gifts that keep on giving!

New Paints

Unfortunately everything else is in flux at the moment because as soon as we got the party out of the way, I had to empty my study so that it could be decorated. I can't think what possessed me to arrange two such major events within two days of each other. I am temporarily installed in the living room and connecting to the net through the X-Box cable. The painters finished this afternoon but I need to buy a carpet and have that fitted before I can move back in. I also need to have a rethink about where everything goes and what I need to store. Oh, and buy a new desk because this Ikea one has bowed drastically in the middle, which is rather worrying in a piece of furniture that's holding a heavy and expensive Mac!

Continuing the decluttering and organising theme of the last few months, I'm using this an opportunity to get rid of some stuff. I've drastically culled my art magazine collection - I gave away about 50 of them and have another huge pile to donate to the art college where I do my jewellery course. I've kept the ones I still refer to but it feels wonderful to pass the rest onto people who will actually use them. And as an added bonus, it frees up a lot of storage space on my shelves. Next I have to tackle my many folders of saved articles and images.

I've come to understand that having too much stuff weighs me down and makes it far more difficult for me to create. I had the realisation about a month ago that it didn't matter how many neatly labelled boxes I had, if I simply had too much to store, then my shelves and cupboards were always going to be an impenetrable mess.

So lately I've been tackling The Cupboard Of Doom, a huge walk-in cupboard that we've thoroughly filled up with stuff. I've been systematically clearing it out; going through boxes, throwing things out, visiting the dump, filling up our weekly recycling bins and giving away hundreds of items on freecycle.

I've even surprised myself by being able to give away some art and craft supplies: usually I hold onto those for dear life but sorting out my studio has helped me to see what I already have and what I no longer use. Having too many supplies can actually be a disadvantage when making art because you can suffer from a sort of mental paralysis when faced with too many options. In addition, having vast quantities of supplies makes it harder to find the things you actually want to use.

Decluttering may not seem like it has much to do with art, but it feels as though what I'm really doing is making a much bigger space in my life for my art.

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I spent some time in my local yarn store today. Sure, I needed yarn for my next couple of projects but much more than that, I needed an hour to soak up some colour and texture. I could have ordered the yarn from the shop's website and saved myself a trip in appalling traffic but I knew that I needed to go: something in me was craving that experience. I wanted to wander around, picking up the yarns and squashing the skeins in my fingers. I needed to feel the softness, the springiness and the resistance of the different fibres. But most of all, I needed to marvel at the myriad of colours. I needed to see the ways in which different dyers had married shades together, to notice how some tones zinged and jumped, while others were muted and subtle. I spent some time holding balls of yarn next to each other, testing to see which would go well together and which were jarring or unpleasant. I didn't have a particular project in mind, I just wanted to see what worked and what didn't. You can learn a lot this way - maybe art teachers should stop bothering with boring old colour wheels and just take their students to a fantastic yarn store instead!

I've never been brilliant at colour, I don't have the instinct for it that some artists do, but I still occasionally need a bit of colour therapy. Sometimes my muse (for want of a better word) craves time spent in art galleries, libraries, parks or beautiful buildings - and sometimes it just needs to smoosh some yarn!

I left with the yarn I'd planned to buy and only one extra thing (a bargain skein of very beautiful sock yarn) but more importantly, with my heart contented and my inspiration levels rising.

We all need to spend some time inspiring ourselves, otherwise our art will eventually run dry. What have you done to inspire yourself lately? Do you take yourself out on regular 'artists' dates', as Julia Cameron recommends? I often forget and only realise that I need to once it becomes a desperate craving. If you're in the same boat, then I hope you can take some time over the next few days or weeks to recharge those artistic batteries by doing something that's just for you. It's especially important to do this if you're caught up in the seasonal madness. It doesn't need to be much and it doesn't need to take long but I think it's vital to remind ourselves that our art is every bit as important as buying presents, baking cookies, decorating trees, placating relatives and all the other traditions that we may have encumbered ourselves with.

And if you don't celebrate anything at this time of year, then maybe you can indulge in your own personal art hibernation while all around are drowning in festivities? Get a pile of good art books from the library, stock up on some exciting new materials, shut the door and spend a few days just losing yourself in play. Mmm, sounds good to me!

Wow, I didn't mean to be away for so long - sorry about that. Despite my policy of trying to post most days, the last two weeks have been completely hopeless. Last week I had the cold from hell, on top of an existing illness and it just knocked me flat. I'm still sneezing explosively but at least I've got my voice back and I'm thankful that I'm no longer violently coughing quite so frequently. Ah well, at least it's taught me is that I need to store a backlog of extra posts to use when I'm not well - so I guess it was useful for something!

Needless to say, not much art has been happening around here lately - I've been managing to do my daily envelope for The Diary Project and that's been about it. However, in between doses of cough medicine and Lemsip, I have been getting plenty of knitting and reading done - so here, for your delectation and delight, is a book review.

Following Katherine's positive review of The Drawing Book by Dr. Sarah Simblet, I ordered a copy from the local library (don't you just love interlibrary loans!) and it's been my late night reading for the past week or so.

I can safely say that The Drawing Book will definitely be going on my Christmas wish list because it's absolutely chock full of good stuff, including one of the clearest explanations of traditional perspective that I've read.

The book is split into short, well written chapters on a variety of subjects including landscape drawing portraiture, nature drawing and even abstract drawing. I particularly liked that drawing from the imagination wasn't ignored - so many drawing instruction books focus solely on realism, which often puts me off since that's not my primary interest. Simblet introduces each topic with relevant drawings, both her own and other artists, before going on to detail a drawing exercise that the reader can attempt. However, even if you don't try any of the exercises - and I haven't yet - you'll still get a lot out of this book.

I was particularly struck by the way she looks at drawing with a fresh eye and how she's able to communicate that to the reader. The book is full of a wide range of great drawings and she has included some more unusual artists alongside the usual subjects such as Picasso, Goya and Rembrandt. The range of drawings is pleasingly global and stretches from neolithic cave painting right through to contemporary artists who are taking drawing in new directions. It was actually a little odd that I'd met three of the people whose work she showed but since she used to teach at my college and they also had links there, I guess it's not so very strange - the British art scene is staggeringly small at times!

The information about materials is also very solid. Apart from focusing on the usual things like paper, pencils, ink and charcoal - which all have handy, nicely illustrated, double page spreads scattered throughout the book - Simblet also highlights some more unusual drawing materials like silverpoint, which I've never considered using before and am now very keen to try. Her explanations of drawing materials are straightforward and easy to understand without being overly simplistic. Indeed, the same can be said for all the language throughout the book, which makes it pleasingly accessible - frankly, this is an absolute blessing since far too many art books are heavy-going to say the least.

I'd say this book would be good both for relative beginners and more experienced artists who are looking to expand or develop their drawing skills. Older children who are keen on art might also benefit from this book, not least because of the potted tour of art history. That said, I don't think it's a book that I'd give to a complete beginner because I think they might find it a bit daunting. But if you've been drawing for a little while and have got past the absolute basics, then I'd definitely recommend it - I've been drawing for years and I still learnt loads. Plus, it's beautifully laid out with high production values, reasonably priced, well edited and best of all, it doesn't make drawing seem boring!

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Joanne B Kaar is a Scottish artist who works with fibre and bookmaking. In 2006 she completed a three month residency in Durness in Sutherland, which she documented in a fascinating blog.

Joanne B Kaar - Sango Sands
Joanne B Kaar - Sango Sands Seapapers

During the residency she made a series of books from handmade paper, often using local materials. Some of these books were subjected to pretty harsh treatment like being buried or thrown in the sea! It's amazing that they've survived as well as they have - it's easy to forget how robust paper can be as a medium.

Sutherland is a place that is very dear to my heart. Most of my childhood holidays were spent in Achnahaird in Ross and Cromarty and every holiday included a day trip to Lochinver in the neighbouring Sutherland. Although it was very close as the crow flies, it was an hour-long drive on a narrow, twisting and often terrifying road. I've just checked and according to the AA it's 16 miles yet takes an hour and 8 minutes - that should give you an idea of just how bad the road is! It was worth it though - not least for the annual visit to Achins Bookshop in Inverkirkaig - apparently the most remote bookshop in the British Isles. I always saved most of my holiday money so that I could splurge on books and I still remember the feeling of deep contentment that walking out with a bag of carefully chosen books gave me. I also have fond memories of standing on the pier in Lochinver watching the fishing boats unloading and sitting on the seafront eating homemade pies from the incredibly good local bakery.

Durness is a lot further up the coast and not somewhere I've visited but Joanne's photographs of the area, with all their Highland familiarity, certainly brought up plenty of nostalgia. I love living in Bristol and feel very at home here, but so many of my creative roots lie in those summer holidays in the Highlands - long days spent damming little streams with my brothers and cousins, building complex sand sculptures with my Dad, riding invisible horses, grinding down sandstone in an attempt to make pigment (I used to pretend I was a neolithic cave painter!), patiently drawing for hours in the caravan on rainy days and writing bad poetry once I was a teenager. For several years now I've been needing to reconnect with those roots and I know that I absolutely must make a trip to the Highlands soon because the feeling is getting quite desperate. While I don't really subscribe to the idea of a 'muse', I have learnt over the years that it's not a good idea to ignore particularly persistent creative cravings.

Where do your creative roots lie? Is it a place? A feeling? A particular smell? A certain kind of pencil or the feel of a fresh sketchbook?

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I've been in a creative slump lately because I've been unwell. I just haven't had the energy to do much of anything, let alone making art - although of course, I'm still doing my daily envelopes for The Diary Project. But overall, I've just been feeling totally blah about my work - it happens and I know it'll pass but it's still not a fun place to be in.

One of the few things that has been creatively exciting me lately is Camilla Engman's Organized Collection group on Flickr.

So my art practice for the last few weeks has mostly involved collecting little object on the days when I've been able to get out and about and just taking simple photos of them on walls or paving stones. It's small and it's simple but at least it makes me feel as if I'm still doing something.

Kirsty Hall, photograph of red rubber bands
Kirsty Hall, found rubber bands, October 2007

Kirsty Hall, photograph of red rubber bands
Kirsty Hall, found rubber bands, October 2007

One of the things I noticed when I first started joining Flickr groups was how it made me see the world in different ways and how I stretched my photography a little bit because of it. I'd take different photos than usual because I'd think "hey, that would be a good shot for such-and-such a group". If you're feeling the need for a bit of a creative stretch, particularly in relation to your photography, then I'd recommend it.

And having said all that, I'm now going to take myself and my camera outside to the garden to see what I can find, before I need to go for yet another rest.

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Last night, my son had his 15th birthday 'sleepover' (why do they call them sleepovers when no sleep ever happens?), so I was in nominal charge of 8 teenage boys. This morning, as my son and I cleared up the quite considerable mess, I found myself musing over the similarities between parenting and art.

Art is an everyday thing. Like parenting, it is made up of lots of little moments, a thousand little decisions and a hundred thousand moments of just showing up - what Alison Lee of Craftcast calls "getting your butt in the chair".

Art is usually not the heroic struggle of Romanticism or the epic machismo of the 1950's Action Painters, although those big dramatic moments do sometimes occur, most often in the run up to an exhibition. Instead art - for me at least - is rooted in the everyday; in the daily ritual of the Diary Project envelopes, in the way I sit in my computer chair listening to podcasts while I do another couple of rows on a Thread Drawing canvas, in the slowly changing pile of art books that are permanently in residence under my bed.

Although it is not usually about domesticity, my art is firmly rooted in the home. I am fortunate enough to have a studio at home and like Virginia Woolf, I recognise the importance of having a room of my own. However, my art also takes place in other rooms in the house: in the living room while I'm watching TV with my family, in my bed where I often draw, in our library/dining room where I sit at the big table and stick photos into my sketchbook, in my study as I make work in front of the computer, in the shower where I think up ideas, in the kitchen when I get distracted from cooking by the sudden overwhelming need to photograph the ingredients.

Art permeates my whole life - it isn't confined to a set time or a set place.

In the myths about art, this everyday quality is often omitted. For some reason, it suits people to imagine dramatic moments of crazed genius, a life lived on the bohemian edge and a slow descent into madness, drugs and suicide. We seem to want our artists to be very different from everyone else. Perhaps the reality of getting your butt in the chair, like the daily grind and pleasure of parenting, seems too mundane to most people? Was this great art really made in front of the TV or with radio 4 playing in the background while the artist drank cups of tea and pottered around the studio - how dull! We wanted death threats and overdoses, tortured homosexual love affairs, rats and cockroaches in the studio, drunken pissing in the fireplace, body parts cut off and maybe a couple of tragic stabbings!

But art - like parenting - is not something you do once in one grand and shocking gesture and then never again. Instead, it's a constant trickle, a constant reiteration that this tiny thing, this moment of awareness, this quiet, everyday dedication is the really important thing.

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Paul Catanese, Assistant Professor of New Media at San Francisco State University kindly sent me info about a panel on art blogging that he's chairing at the College Art Association Conference in Dallas in February 2008.

He brings up some interesting questions in the panel blurb:

An explosion of new blogs from artists, collectors, galleries, residency programs and museums are reshaping notions of professional practice within the arts. Though promotion is certainly a major driver in this arena, sites such as Art.Blogging.LA, Walker Blogs, Art Fever and PORT are especially good at projecting a local arts scene into a broader context. Other models investigate blog as sketchbook, establishing a new format for the open atelier. Does art blogging indicate the emergence of a dislocated, yet thoroughly local arts scene? Can blogs shift the space of studio practice while retaining its capability to be unstructured? Is the quest for site traffic inherently at odds with healthy periods of gestation and dormancy? What models exist for balancing these forces? What are the implications for establishing or maintaining an art practice for those who remain virtually present, yet physically distant?

This jumped out at me: Is the quest for site traffic inherently at odds with healthy periods of gestation and dormancy? This is a particularly interesting question to me right now since I'm currently not at my best health-wise and I'm trying to balance regular updating here with a need for large amounts of sleep and cold medicine (could make for some funky blogging this week!) It's great to see someone recognising that art practice does require these dormant periods where you're cooking up new work and aren't ready to talk about it yet and I can certainly see how that could make keeping a sketchbook type blog difficult. Indeed, I've noticed that it's not uncommon for artists who're doing a blog that's focused on their own work to go a bit quiet on occasion.

Anyway, if you're interested, Paul's currently looking for panel members and the deadline for abstracts is the November 9, 2007.

OK, after nearly two weeks of hassle, it looks - fingers crossed - as though my email is now working properly again. If you've contacted me by email in the last couple of weeks and I haven't got back to you then I probably didn't get it, so please do send it again. I've also just realised that there were a bunch of comments on one of the blogging posts that I missed seeing, so apologies for not replying to those sooner.

I hadn't realised just how much I rely on my email until it went so badly wrong, in fact, I still feel rather insecure about it because I don't know how much stuff went astray after our stupid email provider 'upgraded' their spam filters. I'm still hoping that they'll be able to send me the stuff they filtered out but I've got a horrible feeling that they probably just threw out several hundred genuine emails.

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We will now have a small kitten interlude. Here's the newest member of our family, we picked her up tonight.

Kirsty Hall - Chiana aged 10 weeks old, photo of kitten

We've named her Chiana (yes, I am a geek, why do you ask!) and I am madly in love. She's sleeping right now so I can sneak off to use the internet but I can see that getting studio time is going to be a struggle for the next few days!

She's 10 weeks old and a Bengal cross on her Dad's side (hence the beautiful markings) and an absolute little sweetie. She's a confident wee thing - she walked right into the cat box of her own accord, didn't cry in the car and when we got in, she came straight out of the cat carrier and promptly made herself right at home. We've spent the evening bonding, she's just been curled up on my lap asleep. Predictably, I have utterly lost my heart to her - so if I'm not around as much as usual in the next day or two, you'll know that I've been sucked into a Kitten Wormhole.